If only life was like the movies I watch. I watch and see all of these happy endings. It gives hope. Is it false? I don’t know. I honestly don’t. I watch these movies with crazy plot twists. Good usually overcomes evil. Love conquers all. There is a happily ever after.
I have also seen others in real life achieve it. But is it possible for me? I don’t know. I honestly don’t know. If only.
There are promises all through the Bible about God giving us the desires of our hearts and having a plan for us. I believe that. But there are times when I doubt for myself. I have believed and then had life blow up in my face. I know we have all hurt. I know. But when you have trusted and believed and honestly thought you had it right finally and it was a lie, it just makes you doubt everything.
I’m trying. I’m moving forward and doing what I should. Doing all the right things. I was before, too, though. I guess the only thing I can do is keep doing it and hoping and praying and keep doing what I know is right. Let go of the hurts and hold on to the promises of God. In the meantime, I’ll go back to being a nun who wears lipstick and doesn’t wear a habit.
Maybe life will all fall together. If only.