I was talking to someone recently and the subject turned to where we are in life. Am I where I want to be? NO. A solid, resounding no. But when I say that, it doesn’t mean that I can’t look at things and find something positive.
There are so many things in my life I would change. Oh so many! But something I wouldn’t change is my heart. I know that the bottom line is that I am a good person. That has no monetary value. And for some people it may not mean much. But the way I was raised, that means a whole lot. I was raised to be a good person. I was raised to treat others well. I was raised to root for the underdog. I was raised to help others when I might not have much.
There are times when I wish I could just be selfish and only look after myself without a care for others. It might make life easier. I might be further ahead in life. But how would I feel?
So when I do an inventory of my life I have to take into account the person I am as well as where I am. I also take into account the people who are in my life. I have had to shed some people from my life. I have also grown my circle. This is not an easy thing for me to do. While I love others, I don’t trust easily. But as I have gotten older, I have learned that sharing my life with others can bring me joy. So I have learned to open doors slightly here and there to see how it goes.
So where I am now is in a constant state of learning and growing. I would love to say I know everything I need to know. I don’t. At all. It’s a process. I am trying to learn and move forward.