Today I started a new job. It was a little scary walking into a new place because I didn’t know any of these people really. And as I did this I looked back at my whole life. Throughout my life I have disliked change. I didn’t like not knowing what was ahead of me. But I have come to realize that the only way to move forward and find happiness and reward was to change. This could be myself, a job, the people in my life or relationship statuses. Those things are very scary. I have had to remove people from my life in order to move forward. And I have had to add people to my life in order to move forward.
Sometimes you don’t know what you’re going to get when you make these changes. It’s like a crapshoot. You just roll the dice and see what comes up. And sometimes you have to take that chance. Opening up yourself to others as well as new experiences is not the easiest thing to do. I know from experience. I have been let down, hurt, disappointed and all of the other things that you could say. But I’ve also been uplifted, loved, elated and all of the other positive things as well.
So while this big change of mine has been quite interesting, I have had to get past my fears and open up to new people and experiences. And so far I have been happily surprised. I have been able to allow a couple of people closer in my circle than I normally would. That’s rare for me. And I guess that is really dependent on the person; but it’s nice to open up the circle just a little.