the ups and downs of life

Fake Sun

I have lived so long without love that I never thought I would feel it again. It is somewhat like living in the dark and never seeing or feeling the sun. You get used to that darkness and the warmth and radiance of the sun is scary but also a very pleasant feeling.

For a brief time I had what I think of now as a pseudo-version of that. I suppose it was like dim flourescent lights of a tanning bed. They glowed and gave similar feelings, but they weren’t true. Then the lights died. And even though the lights died, I missed them. That light radiant glow warmed my skin and made me feel something other than darkness. It brought color back into my cheeks. My eyes sparkled.

Without the false sun, I wasn’t sure what to do. I was scared to venture into the real sun. It was bright and much shinier. It was terrifying. It didn’t feel safe.

It’s scary when you’re trying to decide whether to stay in the safety of the darkness because you know what is there. Or do you eventually make yourself see the sun? The sun is bright and scary and shows every flaw.


Single Post Navigation

Please leave me a message!

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s


Inspiring people to live the life God intended them to live.

Fred's Food For Thought

Eat Well, Live Well

Our Little Family Adventure

Our family's adventure to eat healthy whole foods, get in the kitchen together, and enjoy life.


Not Your Grandma's Coupon Site


Nancy Roman

The Byronic Man

We can rebuild him. We have the technology... Drier. Hilariouser. More satirical than before.

Creating J.Lyn

Be happy. Be you.

Wally's Daily Bite's

Your Transformation Begins With the Next Thought, Bite and Step

kathy rasmussen

the only way to do great work is to love what you do

Someone Like Me...

Stronger and Stronger, Day after Day...

Hiking Photography

Beautiful photos of hiking and other outdoor adventures.

On the Homefront

Reflections on life: the funny, poignant, serious and quirky


Create a Life That Matters!

Rantings of an Amateur Chef - What works, and what doesn't!


One man's weight loss journey

Break Room Stories

Service Industry Stories and More Since 2012


Just another site

%d bloggers like this: