Sometimes I feel like “Why bother?” I was trying to tell something to someone earlier today. They refused to listen to me because they just knew they were right. I felt like just saying why bother? I knew they were wrong from the information presented and there was black and white proof, but they were arguing with me. I was just too frustrated and tired to argue. I had tried to say something like 4 times and this person kept talking over me. Finally I was tired of it and I was just ready to leave. I said, “If you’d stop talk over me and let me finish a sentence, you could hear what I am saying!” I briefly explained it. Then I left. If this person then wanted to continue look for something wrong, fine. I don’t care. But I was no longer bothering. The funny thing was they were looking for a piece of paper that was non-existent. But that is like a dog chasing its tail. Maybe after they wore themselves out chasing it they would figure that out. I wasn’t sticking around for hours watching it spin in circles.
Another situation, I have gone out of my way to maintain a friendship. The friend has just seemed to be a friend when it was convenient. There have been times when this person fails to be places on time. No phone call, no nothing. Just kind of breezes in and says hello as if nothing is wrong. Then they can’t seem to understand why I am upset. They were supposed to be meeting me so I could make it somewhere else at a designated time. I had no idea what time they were going to arrive. I have either had to cancel something else or had to fly to make it there. I feel used and angry. I am wondering if this is even friendship or what. I am honestly starting to doubt it. I like this person and I hate this behavior. I have to interact with this person like this multiple times a week. It’s starting to cause problems. I don’t want to have to confront them, but I suppose I am going to have to. I am tired of my life being in chaos because of someone else. It’s bad enough when I cause chaos. But when outside forces are causing it? That’s bad! But the part I am concerned about is the friendship…I mean, why bother? Do I bother? I care about this person. But I don’t feel like it is really reciprocated. Or if it is, it is superficial. And maybe that is all they’re capable of. But I need better than that.
Maybe I am in a bad mood. Maybe I am just reflective. But I feel like why bother at times. Some people just don’t care and some people just aren’t worth it. How do y’all handle moments like these? I really want to know. I am just kinda stuck and I don’t want to be stuck. I want to feel confident with how I handle things.
- Why Bother Trying If Your Just Gonna Be Ignored? (katemonkiie.wordpress.com)
- Friendship (mommyiscrunchy.blogspot.com)
- Emotionally Unavailable (stonedlovechild.wordpress.com)
- Remaining Friends? (thecomplainerguy.wordpress.com)
- Toxic Friendships: Accepting, Forgiving, and Moving On (tinybuddha.com)
- On Friendship (joethepeacock.blogspot.com)
- Just being me… 🙂 (tigerviven.wordpress.com)
- Confrontationalism and Bridge Burning? (More on Atheism+) (subjunctivemorality.wordpress.com)