This is the time of year that I really wish I could control time. I would love to fast forward or rewind. Something besides this time. The holidays are coming up and they are the most depressing time for me. This year is going to be especially hard. I had a lot of hopes for this year and they were just obliterated. I did what was right and it backfired on me. And while I know it was the right thing to do, it still leaves me alone. Most people have family of some sort to turn to. I don’t. It’s just me. Well, me and my cats. And I swear if I hear one more crazy cat woman joke I will scratch someone’s eyes out, by the way.
So if I could control time I would either speed it up and get on to spring time. I am much happier then. My allergies suck because of everything blooming, but my heart is happier with the warmer weather and the beauty of the blooms.
If I could rewind time, I would rather do that. I would spin it back about 20 years and redo many things. I would get to spend more time with my parents. It has been so long since I have seen them and I would give 20 years off my life for one day with them.
Time can be your friend or enemy. Lately it has been my enemy.