It’s funny how a mood can change so easily. Today my mood has swung like a pendulum. I wasn’t in a great one, then it got better, then it got worse. A lot of it has had to do with subject matter and people I have been dealing with. It’s made me think, though, that I would really like to not be so affected by external circumstances so much. I need to control my locus a little (lot) better! Life is going to happen no matter what. I want to laugh about it rather than be pissed off. I want to not let it bother me. If people say or do things that hurt my feelings, I want to say, “That was hurtful” and then just move on! I don’t want it to bother me and be a part of my life. I don’t want it dwelling in my head like it should take residence! No. Move on!
All of this because of stupid events and people in a stupid day. That’s a lot of critical thinking. Whew! My head hurts. So internal locus, external locus…hocus pocus. I have to delve into this a little further. It’s very interesting. It does seem to decide how people and things affect me and how I react. Maybe if I can work on this then I can change other things? Who knows. I guess we shall see.
For now, I need something for a raging headache. Too much information for my poor brain to handle now.