Where Is The Off Switch?
Not to the computer. I know where that is. I’m looking to the off switch to my brain. I have so many things on my mind. It’s frustrating. I am sitting here with so many things and people rolling around in my head and it’s like they just won’t stop. It seems like there should be an off switch somewhere. I mean, I took meds. That didn’t work. My work schedule this week is very “off”. I have my days are mixed up. I am feeling kind of overwhelmed. I have been sick. I kind of have a crazy schedule ahead of me and frankly it is frustrating because I don’t know when I am going to have a break. I am tired. I am very tired. I feel pretty weary. It’s frustrating when you don’t know when/if you are going to have a break to just really relax and have time to do more than wash your clothes.
I guess it is just taxing to do everything all the time all by myself. Maybe that is the bottom line. I work my ass off and there seems to be no reward as of late. I feel like I run in circles. I go to work. I come home. I wash clothes, take care of cats, barely have time to run to grocery store to grab food for work, sleep some, go back to work. It doesn’t feel fulfilling. I don’t have anyone to help me. It is so frustrating to do all of this alone. And it is just nonstop. When I do come home I am so tired and run down lately that I just don’t have the energy to do anything else. There are moments I want to cry. There are moments that I do cry.
So I am wondering where my stupid off switch is. My body is tired. My brain should be. It needs to just SHUT UP and GO TO SLEEP while it can!