Pain of All Sorts
With the weather cooling down again, my body is feeling it. I have a torn rotator cuff that happened 3 years ago that is suddenly hurting like crazy. There’s this weird tingly pain right above my shoulder-blade that almost feels like electrical pulses. I hate it. I hope to get it fixed next year. 3 years of this pain is more than enough. And every stab of pain reminds me of how it happened, which was terrifying. I was attacked at work when I worked at a group home for people with mental retardation. It was my second attack in one year and it was scary. I hope that surgery will help take away the memories.
But the shoulder pain got me to thinking of other pain. Yesterday I got my feelings hurt by someone. I hate that feeling. It’s something that really hurt my feelings and it is something I can’t really say much about. I don’t know how to deal with that exactly. It just was one of those “wow” kind of moments. (and not in a good way)
I figured out I don’t like either versions of this whole pain thing. It is not pleasant and the one that isn’t physical seems to hurt more.