I Need A Break
I need a break. I wish I had enough money to have one. I hear or read about my friends who get to have vacations and I’m jealous. I hate to admit it, but I am. I am so tired, physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally. I just need a break.
If I could go somewhere for a break, I would love to just go to a secluded beach and mostly be alone. I hate being alone so much yet I want it. I think I could even do without my laptop. Just give me cable, groceries, books and plenty of bubble bath. I’d also love a huge comfy bed. I would love to have a week of that.
I’d probably like to write some during that time but I really need some time to just let my brain shut down and relax. Maybe I would let myself paint. But that still requires thought. But more than anything it requires feeling for me. If I could just do it with or for feeling then that would be fine.
I would also love soft blankets and a fireplace. I know that it is still kind of warm, but if I had to, I would crank the a/c in order to make it cool enough to have a fire. I would lay there and and enjoy the the crackles and pops of the wood burning. Then I would probably wish for someone to be there with me, but I could handle it. I have handled it well in the past.
It would be so nice to have a peaceful feeling like that. I would love it. I would love to have the time and money to give myself the break I need. I need to re-energize.