Leave work at work!
Most days I can leave work at work. Home is my safe place from the hateful world. When I need to feel safe, I can come home and lock myself in and lock the world out. Just me and my cats. No tv (no cable). Just limited internet activity of my choosing. And the comfort of being at home. Maybe that sounds like a hermit. I’m not like that all the time. But when I am stressed and feel like screaming, that is what I need to do. Better that than treating other people crappy because I feel crappy, right? See, I acknowledge that I might take my negativity out on others when they don’t deserve it so I remove myself from situations where that might happen. Now of course there are times when I have to go somewhere and a minor bout of road rage happens. I don’t try to mow people down. I just usually curse very loudly in my car and sometimes make hand gestures for emphasis. But it is really better that I keep to myself in my sanctuary when I am feeling stressed beyond belief.
I have felt that way the last couple of days. Today I couldn’t sleep. I was stressed from work and just life in general. I wanted to leave work at work this morning when I left. I really did. But for some reason it jumped in the car and rode home with me. I don’t know how it did it, but it did. And it stayed in my head and kept me mad all day. I’m about to have to go back tonight and I dread it. I’m praying I don’t have another night like last night. If I do, I might go stark raving mad. I have to be absolutely nice even when I am not getting treated too nicely. Maybe that is why my blood pressure has been up recently? Maybe that is why I have this throbbing vein in my head? Or maybe I’m having an aneurysm? I don’t know.
What I do know is that when I leave work in the morning I am going to try to leave work at work. If it tries to jump in the car again, I’m going to kick its ass right out and leave it in the parking lot. It ain’t coming home with me again!
This is a problem for me as well. I also like to have time to myself to just regain my balance after working a very stressful job several days in a row. I think tomorrow is going to be one of those days in which I do things just because I want to, things that bring me joy and put a smile on my face….how many cats do you have? I have two…one is the chosen one (and believe me, she acts like it), the other is a stray who showed up a couple years ago during the late fall, I felt sorry for her and ended up keeping her…I can’t help it, I can’t stand to see an animal abandoned and hungry…
Thankfully last night was NOT as bad as the one before. I couldn’t have handled it if it had been. OMG! So last night was SMOOTH, with the exception of a bank issue for myself which turned out to not be my fault.
I have 2 cats. Chloe is my tortoise shell calico. She is bitchy, funny, and loving. She was my first cat. The vet walked in and within 5 minutes said “she is going to be a mess!” Then at her next visit I had to ask him what to do with her because she was biting me constantly to the point of pain and was constantly attacking my feet and ankles. He told me I needed another cat because she was bored and she saw me as a playmate instead of her Mama. So we found Soleil online needing a home because she was in a home where a dog didn’t like her but she liked it. So she came into my house and was right at home within a day and a half. Soleil is a butterscotch tabby. She is laidback and loving. The only time I ever have trouble from her is if she ever believes I am going to bathe her.
They’re both great cats and different as night and day yet love each other beyond belief. And they love me. 
There are strays outside that I call “spare cats” because one day Chloe was misbehaving and I told her she better behave because there were plenty of spares outside who would love to have a good home. 
Nice to know that I am not the only animal lover. If I ever won the lottery I would have an animal rescue and probably wouldn’t let people adopt them because I wouldn’t want to let them go.